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away,

Bella's birthday :

Those pictures were taken 4 months back. Haha, and i just felt like posting it now (:

Urm, will be away for few days. Going genting with baby and her family.

After that, i won't be blogging so often. Cause i'm moving to yishun and there's no computer there. I should think of buying one, seriously. ):

There's so much more to overcome.

Work,

I really wished you was there at that point of time. But, you wasn't. Neither honey nor anyone else. Best thing is, king says its ok. Like totally what the fuck. I'm in a difficult position now. Just one wrong step, i'll be dead. Because i can't choose and have no rights to say, now i got no other choice but to join in the game. I have to think twice before i speak, yes, and alot more than i expected. This is crazy. I don't know how long more i can hold. Just hope that this game will end soon.

Baby,

i don't want it to turn out like this.

i love you.

no way, again

Why? I mean why this always happen. First was her, then now you.
Szekuan, i really hate you.
Fuck yourself. ARGH!

How about my christmas?

I made you felt left out, i'm sorry.
I don't know how should i react after that day, our surprise, what a waste. Thank you jayson for the car you lend me. Thank you val for the cake you bought for her, thank you everyone for your effort.

Now that our honeymoon period is over, fuck eveything, i just want us to be like before.
Though i know so much things after that day.
I still.. keep you, as my baby, always.

There's more to come.

No way, idk,

I'm gonna have a hard time, like sooooooooooon. My life's a mess, totally. And after 3 days of not blogging, now i don't know where the fuck should i start from. Work, friends, family, girlfriend or whatever. Let's see...

Work, was fucking tiring. Try being in my position. I have to handle things which wasn't my standard. Have to handle the most important job in the pub, being a accountant. How much brain cells i have to kill after 1 morning of counting huge sum of money, big big numbers. Yuck, math, fuck you.

Friends, yes, i should dig out some time for them soon. Szekuan, stop being so selfish. You're such an asshole. Darlings, Laogong, honey, sweet, girlf and whatever, i miss youuuuuuuuuuu.

Family, ok, they're so so broke. Do something idiot. Stop spending their money. And i hope i will. (i'll try)

Girlfriend, don't leave baby.

No, not, hate, fuck, lies and the end.

imy,imy,imy alot alot

BABY, FLY BACK TO SINGAPORE NOW NOW NOW!
GET YOUR ASS BACK QUICK ):
I DON'T CAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Went town with some long time no see friends (:
Zoey Tiong, i miss you! lol.
Anyway, honey just told me how unglam i sleep every night. Haha.
Jesus, szekuan, fuck yourself.
Urm, eye open half way, grinding my tooth, mouth opened and super big actions. How cool is that. Totally two person, the day and the night. How's that? (:

I want off on thursday! CHIBAI.

Its been soooooooo long since i slept for so long.
Anyway, my purpose blogging today's not that. Urm, saw my friends's photo. Omg, you guys changed alot. I mean serious, ALOT. Actually, i miss you all. Though you all are very irrtating at times, always doing stupid stuff but we're still friends =D

Really hope to see al of you soon. And darling, I MISS YOU(:

A part of me,

A part of me is happy, a part of me is sad now.

Cause baby's at japan. Wondering what's she doing now? Is it cold there? What time is it? And everything. So many questions for her to answer ):

I'm happy and i don't know why. But i'm really happy when i'm working =D Serious, i've never felt like that before. I mean, for the past 1year plus i've been working there. lol.

Anyway, my phone spoiled. Felt so lost without a phone. Jesus.

TOOTH.

You : why are you afriad of losing me?
Me : cause you're part of my life.

After hearing what you've told me, i don't know why but my face turn chilli red. Oh, your's tooooooooo (: And you're leaving for japan tonight. Five days, i've got 2body gurads. Great! I swear i'm gonna miss you like crazy =(

Anyway, woken up by 2 idiot. Keep nagging nagging and i woke up after 36876427 mins. Bathe, prepare, cab home nuh, waited from 12 to 3 and MY TOOTH IS DONE =D Though i'm still not happy with the end product. I still have to TRY to like it. Fuck, tooth, you cost me a bomb. Roars. Aftermath, town.

Got to work later (:
Back to my old self. Szekuan, when are you going to change?

p.s, this picture was forced to be take. heh heh

i don't know why,

Should have sleep at hougang but someone didn't answer my call ):
And, read your blog, now i felt damn terrible. Can't sleep but also can't contact you. Baby, what is it that you have to think? I don't know, i just can't be as perfect as her, i know it myself. I know i can never be, but i've tried.

Szekuan, you're such a loser.

Bintannnnnnnnn,

I soooooooooo wanna go Bintan ):
How?

Endlessly,

Its not a good day.
Were losing blood in the morning at polyc then nuh pissed me off with their working attitude. Roars. Need to make my way down this friday, again.


Ang Mo Kio at night to play with numbers. And at least i get paid for that :D
Cab home and i'm alone. Honey's working, baby's home, eveyone's busy with their stuff.

I need to work. Friday, i'm looking forward to it.

8th.

And 20th.

brother, zhen yu

To me, i kept things to myself because i don't want it to turn out the way i don't want it to. Not that i don't want to share it with anyone, i know its selfish, but i just don't want the outcome to be the other way round. So, that's the reason for being quiet.
I'll love you just as much baby (:
<3


Hello, i miss my brother. I know its random.
Urm, anyway, its the 3rd today! I'm fking happy. lol. But i still have to wake up early to go to the polyc when my appointment at nuh is in the late afternoon. 5.55am, hope i can wake up.
Oh and, i feels like vomiting now. fuck.

Life,

Expo again, though its a boring place.

This time i saw friends (:

And, came home like damn early. Idk why.

Blog hopped, online, smoke and eat. I can muti-task, good.
Oh, i've got something to say, no, i've got alot to say.

But, NOT TODAY.

I love you more than you can imagine.

smoking,

Expo is a fucking boring place. And that's all i wanna say for today.

Szekuan is boredd.

Where's the next stop,

Don't make me hate myself more.
I just wanna throw everything aside now, and fly up to the sky.
C'mon, i feel so....

Unhealthy,

Just because i decided not to go out today, poor Szekuan here has to stay inside her room to eat cup noodles. Well, packet noodles for supper. I wish honey's here ):
Love is working.. & i'm bored because of that.

Need some time,

Its gonna be a busy and pack dec. Moreover, Christmas and New Year is coming. Dandan's 1st Birthday is today. Batam with love and friends, genting with love and her families. Worst still, work. Come to think of that, i really need to start saving, start taking public transport and stop smoking. It's only been less than a month since i go jobless and freeeeeeeee but also, i learn something new, something only after you experience it then you'll know. A good lesson learnt.

Oh and, work tomorrow morning in the library again. Wah, just kill me.

Ciaos, it's getting late, time to sleep =D

Just once.

This sounds good,

Ok, now every symptom shows that i'm going to die early.

Great, and so, i shall just die.

Kuan, you're fuckin retarded. Did the fever burn you or something?

I guess you should really go for a body check up.. I'm serious.

You act like everyone owes you a billion.

And i'm actually tearing. Why?!

high,

39 degree, high fever, injections, medicine.

I need to learn something new. Knowing you better and understanding you.
I know, 'm gonna have a hard time.
and, i thought you would be happy... =(

sick,

I'm feeling damn high now.

the way you are,

I've got something to say.

• Don't expect your friends to always agree with you.
• Don't depend on your friends to make you happy.
• Forgive yourself. Forget your mistakes and move on.

I was like fucking bored when me and val went out to smoke. So i decided to call baby with the public telephone. Haha, it's been years.. Talk for 6 mins and walked back to school.
All we did was rearrange the whole library. And of cos we didn't finish it. We read abit, pack abit and times up. OFF WORK!! =D

Problems aren't necessarily bad.

Library,

It seems quiet here.
Songs are the only thing i can hear now, where am i when you needed me?
What kinda girlf am i?

Fucck myself.

If there's anything, i'll be there

Woke up like damn early, train to woodlands, bus to hougang, train to plaza sing, train to bugis, train to pasir ris, bus back home and cab finally back 2nd home.

I stare up at the stars, i wonder just where you are,

i feel you million miles away.

18th birthday,

Yiqian's birthday at blue. Went home damn early cause going baby's place to sleep over. Woke up at 7 to roll down the bed. Then woke up at 10 again saw baby looking at me =D
Anyway, oh, she pass her driving! Super happy for her. Silly, smiling ttroughout when she reach home. HAHAHA

Well, then went kovan to buy things to surprise yiqian cause the chibais wanna count down for her. Wa, she better appreciate, or i'll kill her. Me and baby put alot of effort inside k. YIQIAN! YOU BETTER LOVE US MORE! CHIBAI.

Countdown, 5, 4, 3, 2 and 1!! HAPPY 18th YOU CHIBAI. Then me and grace got this damn good idea (: i help her cut her cake but ended up smashing on her. She almost pour the martell on me la when trying to defend. Urm, i got the video but lazy to upload ):

So, baby left early and left me rotting with the rest of the chibais. Played cards, drink and talk cock. Left at 4. And recieved an unexpected call.

Bunny, you don't have to say all that. Nither your friend have to ask those questions. So what if you're hurt? I've got hurt by you once and i didn't complain cause i love you. But it's the past already. Just go on with your life. I can be nothing to you. Its just the matter of time. Believe me.

Urm, 'm thinking of going back to work.

Not anything, but it seems like that's the only job on hand now.

I hope you won't mind ):

baby, i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Cold lonely nights,

Urm, mahjong from 12 to 7. Nuh appointment at 8 in the morning. Look at the time now, its 10 and i just got home. Without sleeping for 712077 hours, super duper shag. Best thing, there's no space for me to sleep, and it means i have to sleep on the flooooooooor -.-



YiQian's birthday celebration tonight at blue.
Wa, what a place.
But too bad, i need my pay.
Looking forword to 3rd dec =D

baby,

you're all that i ever wanted.

rushing post,

Ok, 98hits in less then a day its alot. And by the way, baby is on web cam with me now (:

She looked so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Urm. Urm. Today's plan wasn't that messed up, so i guess it's a good day. At least baby went to school even she's alone cause her best friend didn't wanna go back to class after breaktime. Waited and 'm like fuckingggggggggggggggg tired, serious. Until now i haven't sleep and 'm going out like SOON? Mahjong's the princess for the day (:

Okay, i know i looked retarded. Eveyone likes it, right?

I love you endlessly...

jailed,

Baby got jailed at home after a half day out with me. So i tah-bao food for her all the way from ang mo kio during midnight. So sweet of me right? Baby, you better appreciate (:

Anyway, met the same people at hougang then cab to pasir ris. Played mahjong at my place and i lose like hell ): Dad came and i didn't talk to him. He gave me a face like i owe him a hundred thousand. I don't like it, seriously.

And plans for later,
not sleeping tonight, meet val 9 in the morning, same coffee shop to wait for baby's break-time, leaves the coffee shop around 3, a date with baby, meet qian and co, meet val, mahjong at jurong. Tuesday morning, NUH, MY TEETH, FINALLY! =D=D=D

P.s/ Baby dream of me like everyday (: which is good. Cause this show that she miss me. HAHAHA. Now, its 8:16 now and i think val is sleeping. This is bad, totally.

again,

Hougang, chomp chomp, mahjong.

Finally home and i see 3 idiots in the room (:

&i love baby's smile.

):

Mahjong, as usual. From 1am to 7am? Cool.
Fucking shag now and don't feel like stepping outta my house today. But its gonna be a lonely day cause honey is still not home yet. Bet she's not coming back later also -.-

And i did something real stupid. I went to yahoo and search for 'causes of yellowish eyes'. I get something i didn't want.

What is going on in the body?
Jaundice is a condition caused by too much bilirubin in the blood. Bilirubin is a yellowish-orange breakdown product of red blood cells. It is removed from the blood by the liver. Bilirubin is then processed by the liver, passed into the bile, and excreted into the stool. If it is not excreted, it builds up in the blood. Eventually, the bilirubin can get deposited into the surface of the body. This can cause a yellowish tint to the skin, eyes and lining inside the mouth.

What are the causes and risks of the condition?
Jaundice can be caused by:
- immaturity of the liver, which happens in a large number of newborn infants. This is usually normal, goes away on its own, and results in no problems. It is more common when babies are born early, or premature.
- liver disease, such as liver infection, damage from alcohol or other toxins or drugs, or cancer.
- obstruction of bile flow, which may be caused by certain drugs, gallstones, or cancer.
- destruction of a large number of red blood cells, which may occur due to inherited defects in red blood cells, medications, or infections.
- inherited disorders that affect metabolism.

I'm gonna quit drinking. I don't wanna have cancer at this young age ): ): ): ): ):

how?

drinking, not.

Urgh, my eye ball is turning yellowish.
Baby says drinking causes it, is it? I don't know.
How? ):

mahjong,

Waiting for baby's breaktime seems like a everyday thing already. Provided if this idiot goes to school la. Stop skipping school you gangster. ):

Yesteday's a mahjong day, mahjong in the afternoon and mahjong at midnight. Different place same people, crazy idiots. And i won, not bad hurhurhur.

Baby with long hair??

ok, she's gonna kill me. heh

June and qian fooling around at wisma.

After the midnight majong, we cab down to linda's place to sleep over. Her dog is cute, OD, is it spelled like that? hahaha, anyway, i just reached home. Meeting sweetheart, her gf and my gf later.

KISS

Its been a long time and it felt so good being loved again. What happen today is sweet. I love going out with my honey and all the chibais. From the lasiest to the virgin. Today,

Baby: Stop seducing me in public!

Me: I don't care!

the eighth.

Jobless,

oh Oh OH, i had my virgin meal at pepper lunch the other day! lol, i know, this sound so stupid but its yummy... Hougang yesterday, work then fuck work.


'm jobless. No work means no income. No income means fuck king, hard on his face.

And i have to die with all my cup noodles at home with honey. No more cab, no nothing ): Still thinking how am i going down to hougang later on to meet baby. 'm not bus nor train kinda person, you all know that.

Everyone, die with me then.

Baby,

And yes, i went to eat Billy Bombers that day at marina (:
It reminds me of aloy, cause he brought me there once? lol

So my life's as per normal, boring. And sunday, i went prawning, again. Didn't caught much though, but at least i get to eat 2 (: lol, pasir ris park to slack, then king's house to eat steamboat. He bought so much things that 6 people can't finish. Crazy man. Punngol nasi lemak then to baby's house. Super tired the next day.

Today, WORK.

Smokeeee,

Its not anything but i've gotten over. I'm serious and its like a miracle. Cause i thought i would die for her. Urm, forget it. will talk about this again soon.

And... I wanna eat BillyBombers! ):

Went prawning at pasir ris with dandan and 6 other people. They're damne evil ok. Casuse i can't eat seafood and they still bbq in front of me ):

After prawning, hougang. Slacked at jeanice's viod deck and played cards. I won like 6 packet of cig? Yeah, save 60dollars k. (:(:(:

And i miss you.

Think, thinking,

I just can't sleep.
I wanna be alone. But it isn't easy.
I need friends but i don't want them to talk to me.
Now, all i know is i'm not myself.

Time DON'T heal anything anymore.

'm a bitch,

Szekuan, please stop being a bitch. Go, suck a guy's. I just serioiusly don't understand myself now. Maybe i'm really tired of everything like what honey told me. But somehow i got a funny feeling inside me, so blank, so... nothing, simple nothing. Its totally not myself. Why must it happen now? Is it abit too late? Too late to turn back? Or too late to tell me all those stuff? I tired my best just now not to tear in front of you. I hope you didn't see it, cause i did. I asked myself why did i cry? And something inside me is saying ''i don't know either, just felt like it.'' Is it true? No, maybe i'm just yawning.

And just now, do you know how much courage i need to tell you i wanna stop everything now? You don't, seriously. Cause when i say i don't feel like talking about this, talking to you, you still pulled me back. Ya, until i asked you to respect my decision then you decide to let go. I don't wanna force you or force myself to do anything. Maybe you're the one that should really think over it. 2 days, just 2 days. I wish i could be brave and just let this go. Its taking too long. Just like the 1year plus i've waited for you. So silly...

And when i need someone to talk to,

none answered my call. Best, thank you. ):

I don't know,

Jeanice, stop it.

Finally,

I should have spent my time at Bird's chalet laughing my ass off and not trying so hard reply anyone. Okay, just hope that you will do what you say. I don't really mean anything but at least i wanna see you try. I hope and i wish...

Thankspapa (:

Girlfriends, you guys missed dandan right??

BUNNY BUNNY
And my dimples! Can see not??=D

Anyway, i love honey. Cause she's always there for me no matter what. She'll tell me what to do, guild me through every difficulties. Going through thick and thin with me. That's what friends are for. Right? My Eternity.